I thought I would introduce myself since I have been absent for so many years..

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InkkFreakk is 55 years young [56 in July, is Native American Indian [Shoshone-Blackfeet], lives in Southeast Idaho with her 7 cats and is a true artist at heart. Give her the opportunity and she will always come through for true friends. She is an awesome Designer - Creator - Pixeler - Friend - Confidant. She spends her time creating when her health allows her to. On many days she is reserved to pulling out coping tools from her newly created toolbox to help her with her recent addition of health challenges that will be ever present in her remaining years. She really misses the times trekking through the mountains at her favorite waterfall [Sugar Loaf Ridge], or sitting watching the waves crash over the rocks on the coast at Goat Rock Mesa.

She has been creative from a very young age, helping her mother and grandmother sew from the age of 5. She recalls cutting patterns out and pinning them onto the fabric the way she had been taught. As the Memories of the sharpness of the tiny plastic ball tipped pins comes back to her she marvels at how piercing they could be as she continually pricked her little fingers while she learned the proper places to put the pins to keep the patterns the flattest. And oh how thin the patterns were. Such crinkly noisy paper that was so uncooperative and defiant. This was the most difficult part of the learning. Remember to go slow, her mother would say be careful not to rip or tear them. Patience was not one of her virtues when she was young. She wanted to create beautiful things like her mother did, not pin patterns. She must use the sharpest scissors with which to cut the patterns with. If they were not sharp they would not cut properly and rip the patterns too. She had to be very precise, after all, the items you make need to have their pieces just exactly so, or they will not turn out as the pattern cover showed.

Later she was taught how to correctly trace the patterns onto a thin piece of a thin stiff white cottony looking fabric called Pellon. It's wonderful for all kinds of projects including backups of your fragile patterns. As she got older, she was taught how to make many different things. Barbie doll clothes, ceramics (molding them as well as decorating them), Quilting (how to piece together a top, put a quilt together then how to machine and hand quilt patterns to hold the two pieces together), Porcelain Dolls (molding, painting, putting together, making dresses), Embroidery (all kinds), Crochet and Knitting (although she really doesn't like these too well).

After leaving home she continued to learn other crafts to add to her list of many talents. Silk Ribbon Embroidery, Leatherwork, Tatting, Paper Quilling, Beadwork, ScrapBooking (online as well as actual books), Cross Stitch, Hardanger Embroidery, BlackWork, RedWork, CutWork, NeedlePoint, Brazilian Embroidery, Silk Ribbon Embroidery, and some she cannot recall at the time of this writing. She has also learned to design her own Cross Stitch Patterns, Beadwork Patterns, and has written a beadwork book that is yet to be published. Oh yes, speaking of publishing, she was a Published Poet before the age of 18. There is almost nothing short of drawing that she has tried that she has done very well at. Drawing is just not her thing, but she does have an affinity to drawing simple flowers, geometrics, feathers and scrolls, the last two being her favorites.

She is an avid reader, always inquisitive and yearning for knowledge taking every opportunity to learn new ways to help her recovery and health. Her favorites are Murder Mysteries, Native stories, self help and traditions as well as Spirit Medicine. Journaling is also a huge favorite past time. She is in the process of writing as much as she can about her life to write a book about her life. She also would like to counsel others in areas of challenge she has had in her own life. She liked to teach and when she was younger, wanted to be a teacher. That dream was realized, not in the way she had thought, and instead her life has taken her on a different path. She writes stories, poetry and random work when the muse strikes her.

Today she is primarily working in the digital world, and has set her beads and leather aside for awhile. Very soon it will be time to pick it back up again and create new mandala's, dreamcatchers and other wonderful goodies. At the present time she works in Digital Graphics for the Scrapbooking and Pixel Communities and has several Membership areas where she provides her members goodies. She also participates in Blog Trains and Member Only Pixel Collaborations when time allows.

She maintains all areas of her websites (links can be found below), and has learned a great deal since first opening FrontPage a little over 2 years ago, but there is much she still wants to learn. She spends her time creating, playing with color palettes, and learning new techniques.

She loves creating websites using HTML as well as Themes for Wordpress.

The calling to come back to the beading world has been strong recently. She misses working with the tiny globes of color, leather and all the many different stones she loves so much. She has done many styles of beading from simple to complex. Oh how she remembers sitting for hours creating beautiful things. All the ideas she had, and still has and plans to do. You can see samples of her work on the Beadwork pages.

The tag below was created by InkkFreakk with a tube painted by Michele Lynch, a commission done from a photo of her. Enjoy....

Kolor'Scapez Was started October 2008. Back then it was called Plaid'Scapez! I just LOVE LOVE LOVE Plaid. LOL....But a bit later on I felt the Plaid Part was too restrictive so I went on a quest to find a new word for the first half of the name. Hence....Kolor'Scapez. Throughout its existence it has undergone many transformations. It has been rebuilt about 4 times, due to WordPress issues and database errors. So thus I have chosen to rebuild this time with HTML, rather that WP. I hope you will all enjoy it just as much, or more. My site will continue to undergo transformations as I continue to learn more and more about HTML and the workings of different things you can utilize for websites. At some point soon I hope to have previews of past themes.

I tag under the name InkkFreakk. Almost everywhere I am online I am known by either InkkFreakk or Indigo Crow. I use Indigo Crow for my writing. My real first name is RavenSong [all one word] please use InkkFreakk.....or Inkk is fine.

I used to live in California, but in May 2017, I moved back to Idaho. I live way out in the country and its lovely and quiet, unlike Sacramento was. It was noisy, drug dealers everywhere and just tons of ghetto shit all around.

We [my roomie and I, who moved with me] even had gun fights out front of our house. That was some skeery shit right there..

Parts of me are glad to be in Idaho now, some parts of me miss Cali so badly I can taste it. I lived there from 1989-2017, a long time. It had become home, ya know.. When I get down, all I can think is that I want to go home, but this is home now, but after almost 4 years, it still doesn't feel like home. I am still not used to it. I have a tendency to get attached to places even when they aren't my ideal place to live. My son was born in Cali, and still lives there. I miss him a great deal, so that is part of the draw of wanting to go back.

Anyway, let's digress a bit to tell you about why I have been away from the PSP world for so long..

I was heavy in the PSP world throughout 2006-2009, then some off and on in 2010 and 2011...I worked full time through most of 2005-2009.

June 2009, I was diagnosed with Secondary lower extremity Lympedema in both legs.,,i had my legs damaged back in 2004 and noone caught it until now.

I got fired from my job in July 2009. They refused to work with my limitations. And I worked for goodwill.. Nice huh?

September 2010 I got really sick and almost died. I had what is called a Massive DVT. It was 3cm from the vena cava valve in my heart. that's about 1 inch or so... I was in the hospital for 20 days. They had to break down the solid blood clot that went from the middle of my left leg thigh to almost the heart valve. I had zero blood flow on that side of my body. I thought my life was over.

So many things cropped up as a result of that, I ended up with multiple things to deal with daily. And so here I am with all of this, almost dying, and not one lick of therapy or counseling. You were allowed three visits with someone, ongoing counseling wasn't covered under my medical in California. I lived alone during all of this. My best friend lived 2 hours away and came to help me and take care of me through it..

Lymphedema is now my prison in many ways.

It has taken so much from me.

January 2011, my roomies mom died. He lived with her, and his own family kicked him out of his own house that he was suppose to inherit. What a bunch of shitheads. Anyway I told him to come live with me in Sacramento. I lived in a tiny 500 sq ft one bedroom apartment. So he slept on the couch and me in the bedroom. We made it work.

March 2011, I met someone. Add that person to the equation...

July 2011 I was awarded permanent disability because of the complexity of my illnesses.

August 2011, I moved to a 2 bedroom house with my roomie and the person I was dating was there on and off..

Fast forward 2 years to 2013. It had been 2 years of hell and I had had enough, the person I was dating left.

It took me 9 months to get through the grief and loss of losing that relationship. At the beginning I had though that after getting lymphedema, it was my last shot.. I lost 30 pounds, I wasn't eating and cried all the time.. 4 days after my ex left, my roomie wrecked his car. So down to one driver and I'm trying to recover. I had also considered suicide. I have realized that no one is worth that extreme measure, but I completely understand why people do it..

February 2014, I tried to date one more time. 2 months later I discovered he was married and addicted to porn. My world destroyed again, especially since I still hadn't worked through the last one. I know, stupid of me to try again, and I haven't since.

2015-2017, living life as best I could and making plans to move that somehow never really seemed to work out until may 2017. When we finally did get it worked out, we discovered way too late that the truck we could afford to rent was way too small, and at 3:30 am on the night of may 29th, 2017, i had to walk away from most of my boxed belongings, alot i could never replace, and all of my furniture save an oriental carved chest and 2 bookshelves.

Again, devastation had gripped my life. I sat in a uhaul for 23 hours crying the entire time wanting to just go back. But we couldn't. they had raised the rent beyond what we were able to pay, and we had lived in that house with black mold for 5 years. That was the journey to Idaho that made me hate life even more. we couldn't find anywhere to rent of our own that we could afford, so we have to rent rooms in someones home.. i just want a place of my own

I deal with depression, migraines, severe PTSD, lymphedema, lipodema, hypothyroidism, diabetes, hashimotos disease, anxiety and panic attacks, Rheumatoid Arthritis, chronic fatigue so as you can see, its alot to deal with. everyday things took what little energy i had so there was nothing left for other stuff..

Also early 2013-2015 i hand dyed fabrics and fibers to help with groceries..

I have slowly worked through things on my own, here i can have counseling every day of the year if i wish, but the place i was going, hurt my feelings so i would rather just stay away right now... Maybe I will talk about that another time.. I still have alot to work through and process, so its an ongoing challenge. if i disappear for short periods of time, know that i will come back this time...

I have missed making tags and creating. I did cross stitch for a long time, the hand dyed fabrics and other stuff, but my heart really wasn't in those things, they were just distractions.

Ive gotten an awesome new computer with windows 10 on it.. ugghh about that.. but so far most everything works so i am still unsure of what psp things will work and what wont. it will take me time to get it worked out.

Anyway, i have talked your ears off enough.. hopefully i didn't alienate anyone with my digression story.. just thought i would share why i disappeared..